Whoa, I had almost the best 10 days of my life, but today, Sunday, November 29, sucked. My best buds left, and my mom is being a bigger botch than usual. She makes everything seem like my fault, she doesn't take things she's done to me for account. I say things, things she shouldn't hear, to my friends, and then someone eavesdrops and tells her. My god, now she HATES me. Well, I already hated her, but now I just wanna die or her dead. I would never kill her, or myself. But someone, really, like child services or something, should take me away from her. She's a bad mom, I get no love, just yelled. I'm treated like a prize for her to show off, so once I start doing something she doesn't like, it deserves a glare and a shake head. This morning, she told me how hurt she was and all this other bullshit, and all I did was lay there, not caring, just things, fuck, I'm scared. I haven't eaten anything. After they left for something, I went downstairs and a coke, but that's it.. She made another empty promise, I can't ever see my friends, Keir and Jazz, again, or go back to Ohio. So hello hell, and goodbye love.